Yes I am still alive.

I have been sorta out of commission this week. I haven't felt very well and my internet has been messed up. So that's what's been going on. I am excited about this weekend. I hope Ryan's party goes well. Mark is supposed to come home. OMG I just wrote a entire blog and my finger slipped and somehow I erased it. FUCK!! Ok well now you don't get the whole song and dance. Just that I want another kid. I ended up with 5 kids. I have basically adopted another one. I am scared that I just want another one because I love babies so much. I just don't think I need to have another one. I think I need to figure out who I am. I feel like I stash part of me away cause it's just to much to deal with the kids and the house and try to have a life also. I am having company 3 weekends in a row. Not quite sure how that happened but it did. So I guess I have even more cleaning to do. HA! Just want I wanted. I have to lose weight. I have just blown up the past couple of months. I don't know what the hell happened. Well yeah I do, I have been stuffing my face, but that's neither here nor there. The point is I got to lose weight. On the bright side I am done with all my birthday shopping and Easter shopping. I don't have to buy another freaking toy till Christmas. Yeah right, like that's going to happen. Well anyway I need to go. I just wanted to update and post before Aldara had a cow. LOL

Little Boys

Sometimes my boys can be so sweet! There is nothing sweeter than a little boy when they are being sweet. Girls are supposed to be sweet. But I adore it when my boys are being lovey. This morning and I was going nuts trying to get 5 kids to school at 3 different times, Kyle asked me for a kiss as I dropped him off at the gym for his camp out. Yes my 11 year old wanted a good bye kiss in front of the entire 5th grade. Ah! It melts my heart. He was so sweet last week too he tried to give me 5 bucks for my birthday. It was like half of his money. I didn't take it, I told him I just wanted a hug and a kiss. It really makes up for the times when he is being a perfect shit. So I went and got my hair did. Yep I feel like Christy is back. I am blonde, I have bangs, and I wore a shirt that showed boobs today. Yes that's right, you hear correctly, Christy is back. I don't know where the fuck that bitch has been but I am glad she is back. That whiny, dumpy, brown headed, chick was on my last nerve, lol. So tomorrow my friend Tammy from back home is coming with her kids for the weekend. Woohoo!! We are going to get our drink on and bbq. Funny what you think is a good time when you have 6 kids between two people. So I am excited about it. I am going to clean house tomorrow and do some grocery shopping. Oh the cable guy came out today and said I had some bad connections. So allegedly my internet and phone are fixed. We shall see! So I forgot to post the pics of my hair so I will get on that later. Ok over and out!

Tomorrow is the big day.

Yep I am going back to my roots. I am going back blonde. I will post some before and after pics. I am sorta scared. I have been dark for awhile now. Today me and Tay went and got pedis, went shopping, and had lunch. It's nice to spend time with her now that she is not acting like a demon spawn. I am so glad her pre- pms issue is better. God help us all when she gets a little older. So we had a nice day today. It's hard to believe that my baby is going to be 10. Or that Ryan is turning 4. Times moves very fast sometimes. Other breaking news is my toes looks nice, my house is a mess, and I am hungry. I didn't really like my lunch so I didn't eat it. My pug is behind me snoring. Just in case anyway wondered what I listen to while I blog. Its pug snores, yelling children, and my washing machine is going. Swear to God! I wasn't joking when I named my blog. Oh Ryan's new sandbox already bit the dust. Imagine that. I told Mark that a $30 sand box would not last. Sigh! If they would only listen to us. Well I am going to go hunt down a snack and make a grocery list. We need things. Shit tomorrow is Kyle's camping trip and I didn't get him a sleeping bag. Shit, Shit, Shit!! I am off the the store. C-ya guys later!!

My first day.

Well my first day on my own was a little overwhelming. I got really scared because Taylor laid in bed sick all day and was running a fever. She never gets sick. It scared the crap out of me. She is going to the dr in about a hour. Other than that things went ok. No major disasters or anything broken. I kept waiting for my car to die or a window to break. I know I can take care of stuff by myself, I have done it before. I guess you just get used to not having to. So I shall be ok. My dogs are currently on my bed playing. I wish I knew how to explain to wondermutt that he is bigger than the pug, and therefore does not fit on everything the pug does. Hmm remember how bad I wanted a big dog. HeHe This weekend my friend Tammy is coming up to visit. I am super excited. Our kids get along really well, and me and her got some drinking to take care of. Then next weekend is Ryan's bday party and my mother in law is coming. I haven't seen her since before we moved here. It will be nice to have company. Well I am going to pretend like I care what this house looks like and straighted up some before I take Tay to the dr. The only nice thing about Mark being gone is I can let the house go to hell if I want and no one will say a thing. I can also not cook for a week as long as I have soup and ramin noodles. My kids would rather eat that anyway. See there is a bright side to all of this. Later Tators!

This is what life is about.

Today Taylor was off playing with her friends, yes she has made a bunch of them. Kyle was off with his friends. And Mark, Ryan and I were washing the cars. It was gorgeous today. So here comes the ice cream truck. Me and Ryan got a popsicle and sat outside and ate them. That was so what life is about. My kids are happy. I was getting one on one time with one of them. And we were eating ice cream in the sunshine. Life does not get any better than that. Tomorrow Mark leaves for Shreveport for about 45 days. It's going to be hard not having him home. I think the longest we have ever been apart was about 30 days. I am going to miss him. I am going to miss having him to sleep with. And I didn't mean that sexual either. It's going to be me, the cat, and the snoring pug in my bed. Kyle gets pissed when I take the pug at night, lol. I would let the wondermutt sleep with me but I am scared he will get up at night and pee or chew up my room. He is housebroken finally, but he sleeps in a crate at night. I fear that freedom might push him over the edge and make him pee, lol. So I am going to make myself some goals while Mark is gone. Give me something to work for and think about. Keep me from getting bored. My first goal is to work out more. Get back into my habit. Second is to make some new friends and make a point of meeting new people. The playgroup thing really put a bad taste in my mouth about making friends, but at some point I have to move on and find some more friends here. Third take care of my spring cleaning. This will be done next week. Fourth stay in my budget and not shop. Fifth take care of me. I need to get back into the groove of getting pedis and my hair did. You know how long it's been since I got my hair did? Yeah that long. C-ya guys later.

Aye Aye Captain

So here is my weekend update. On Sunday we went to the boat show. Oh yes I am in love, with a boat. I am so going to live in a trailer and have a $200,000 boat. I love boats. So Mark had his last day with BOC. I now live in a BOC free zone. It's a nice place to be. I went and looked at a brand new Sequoia and the only difference was the steering wheel. I am so glad I didn't shell out for a brand new one. Ha I saved alot of money. So Mark leaves Saturday for Shreveport. He will be gone a little over a month, possibly longer. I am going to miss him. I am happy for him though. I got Ryan's party all booked. I am so excited for him. It sucks that Mark won't be there but I am glad that Ryan will have a good time. Does aye aye captain make anyone else think of spongebob? Maybe it's just me, lol. Well I am going to make this short. C-ya guys!

My Day

Today has been the day from hell. I was ready to get drunk before 9 am. I am fighting with my ex over custody, aka money, Mark is driving me nuts, I found out a friend from back home died, the stress of life in general is just killing me. When does it ever get any easier? Don't tell me if it doesn't I really don't want to know. I will spare the sordid details of my battle with my ex, but I will say this, how did I ever marry a man with no soul? It has been a very shitty day. I just want to go take a long bath and bring liquor with me. Hmm guess it's about time I started buying some huh? Yep its been that shitty. So on the bright side my friend Tammy is coming in a few weeks and we are going to get our drink on and hang out and have a blast. I can't wait, I need some chill time so bad. Oh yeah and I don't fit in my clothes thanks to my 5 pound weight gain. It's alot of weight when you are only 5 feet tall. So that will be addressed shortly. Well I am off to make my grocery list and try to relax while 4 kids are running around my house like caged animals that have just been freed.

Feeding the Beast

Ok let me start by saying how much I love my new car. Also let me say I realized it would use a lot of gas. But in my defense all my knowledge did not prepare me for taking that bad boy to the gas station the first time it was on empty. OMG!! Fifty dollars later I was full and ready to go. And it takes forever to pump that much gas by the way. If you ever need to find me I will be at the gas station by my house. So I am starting to feel a little better after my little medicine fiasco. Hopefully by next week I can get back on schedule and get back to the gym. I haven't been and its starting to show. That and that amount of sweet tea I have been chugging down. Def time to get my ass back in gear before it gets to big to fit in my beast. If I get to fat it will kill my gas mileage even more and then I won't be able to afford my new car. Te he the things I think are funny. Well anyway me and my sick twisted since of humor are going to go try and find something to eat. Adios !

He has a WHAT?

This was me this afternoon as I went to pick up Ryan at preschool and his teacher introduced me to another parent and said this is Ryan's girlfriends mom. Excuse me? Let me get my jaw off the floor! He is 3 years old. She said they walk around holding hands all day. And he told me this afternoon when I was asking him about her, he said I don't Muah her Mommy. Ryan speak for I don't kiss her. I was just flabbergasted. I just didn't expect a 3 year old to have a girlfriend, heck I didn't even think he knew what a girlfriend was. *sniff* This is my baby, my last baby. Why are they growing up so dang fast?

I'm not Martha

I don't want to give away any trader secrets and go to jail, but if you have stock in Little Debbie you might want to drop them. We are going Little Debbie free. That's right we are going to try and eat a little healthier. Meaning I am trying to not have the kids eat so many artificial things. So I am going to bake them cookies and brownies, cupcakes, and things like that for snacks. Its only a small step but I think its important to at least try. And homemade stuff always tastes so much better. Also really what else do I have to do? I mean this is my job so I need to do it to the best of my ability. So I am collecting my recipes and making a list and next week commences my new baking phase. We'll see how long it lasts. I am known to go off on these things and lose interest very fast. But I hope I don't since this is something I am doing for the kids. Well I better make this short. Its teacher appreciation week and I have to go shop for teacher gifts, clean the house and take Taylor's class to lunch so her teacher can have a lunch to herself. Woohoo! I can't wait. On Wednesday I take Kyle's class. What's shitty is I am the only mom for both classes who stepped up and said I would. What the heck are these people doing all day? I know there are other stay at home moms in their classes. I bet the kids didn't give them the notes. I know my kids are rather bad about that sometimes. Well I am off to the salt mines for the day. Wish me luck I am going to be responsible for twenty something kids!

Meet Aha Aha

I thought I would introduce you guys to someone that I spend a lot of time with. His name is Aha Aha and he is Ryan's imaginary monkey. Aha goes everywhere with us. He also makes big messes and refuses to clean them up. He talks to Ryan when he is supposed to be in bed sleeping and keeps him up. He rides in the truck of my car on long trips and eats bananas in the trunk and makes a mess. He likes MC Donald's and pizza. Ryan says and I quote" Shut up old mama" and says he is talking to Aha Aha. Yeah right. I guess Aha is a mother too. Anyway I just figured I would share with you guys someone that I spend a great deal of time with.

Changes for real!

LOL! We didn't get the expedition. It had a transmission issue that Mark caught. I love my husband, he is so great at stuff like this. So we ended up buying a Toyota Sequoia. I love it. It freaking rocks. I think I will be much happier with this anyway. I figured I would do a quick post and update. My cousin is home from the hospital. She seems to be ok. Scary how fast you can wreck a car. I mean every day you get in the car and don't think twice that you might get in a bad wreck. Of course I doubt horse pulled buggy's were much safer. I mean you might not have head on collisions, but when the horses got spooked and ran you were just SOL. So anyway today I am going to run errands and get some stuff done around the house, hopefully. That is the goal at least. I worked on Kyle's science project till almost 8:30 last night. Did I ever mention how much I hate science projects? They make me want to pull my hair out. Well I need to go wake the kids up and get dressed. I am so excited to start my day can't you tell? Bleh!