Cha Cha Changes

Things are kind of nuts right now. Mark put in his notice to boc and is going to give it a shot on his own. I am buying a new car today. I have to go finalize it all tonight. I hope I picked the right one. I just have to go with my instincts. Mark is going to keep my car for awhile and see if he likes working out of it, if not we will trade it in and buy him a truck. We are talking about moving back home also. Now that he quit Boc we don't have to live in Mobile anymore. We are thinking about buying property and when the time is right to move back home either building a house or buying a trailer. He doesn't want to live in town anymore so I have no choice but to go back to bufu. Atleast this time I am going to bufu near two of my friends. And I am sure my other friends will come see me since I wont be a hour just like 30 mins, and hell its better than 3 hours right? LOL So anyway thats my latest news. Life has been crazy lately. I can't get over how much things change. It's amazing the difference a year makes. Tomorrow Buddy goes in to get his final set of shots and to get neutered. I hope he doesn't hate me. He stays over night and I pick him up the next day. Maybe it will calm his butt down. He was acting so nuts yesterday I thought he got into someones crack, lol. He is getting way to big to be running around like a crazy dog. I thought I would do something I haven't done in awhile, list what I did today. I took the kids to school, went to walmart, went car shopping, drove said car around to make sure its what I want. Went and picked up Ryan, came home, posted this started laundry. I am going to boil water for a science project here in a minute. At 3:00 I have to check out Tay and Kyle and me and the boys are going to the dr. Me for refills and the boys for shots. Then back home for homework and cooking dinner. We are meeting the guy back at the car place at 7 to finalize the deal and then come home put the kids in the tub and to bed. I am tired just writing all that. Well I better go. I have about 10 loads of laundry that isn't putting it's self up.

Big changes!

Well it's Sunday and Mantha went home already. We had a great time. It was so great to see her and spend time with her. I am so blessed to have such great friends in my life. So today is a big day for our family. Mark is quitting his job and going into business for himself. Yes I know already, what the hell! We did this once but he kept his regular job and now we have no more security blanket. Its going to a experience for us, that's for sure. And we are talking about if this works out maybe moving back home in a couple of years so I wont be alone all the time, while he is gone working. I am excited to for him, and scared, and all kinds of emotions right now. I have so much faith in him and I know he can do this. And what's the worst thing that can happen? I can't lose my kids or dogs because of a failed business. I don't care about this house, or my vehicle. I have been poor and can do it again and be just fine, as long as I have him and the kids. There is nothing at risk of being lost that I really give two shits about. I really don't think its going to be that extreme I know he can do this, and I am supporting him 200%! I was just stating the worst thing that could happen. I just really don't care about material things like I used to. I care about my husband, my kids, my dogs, and my friends. Houses and cars and crap like that is so replacable. Anyway I dont know for sure if I will go back home but it's looking that way. Why stay in Mobile with him gone all the time? I dont have anything holding me here. I can go back home to my friends and family and maybe I wont hate it so much this time around. My mom always did the same thing to, couldn't wait to move away and then couldn't wait to move back home, lol. I guess the older I get the more I get like her. Well here is my big announcement. Wish us good luck!

Real Friends

I haven't been able to post since I got home. Our internet was out and to be honest I didn't give enough shit to call about it. I was happy to have no phone and no net for a few days. I know that everything in life is a learning experience but I have to say the past year or so has been a really hard lesson. I have lost alot of friend in the past year or so. I quit being a doormat and I learn who your real friends are. Let me tell you I have two real friends that I know no matter what care about me and are there for me. One has already been here to see me twice, and the other on is on her way now. I had a really bad week finally accepting that I lost my friends here in Mobile and that I would not be able to continue in the playgroup. It's going to be so nice having someone here this weekend to hang with and talk to. I am super excited that she is going to be here. I guess that I am going to have to suck it up and try and make some friends here. I just have a bad taste in my mouth right now about friends here in Mobile. I gave it a shot and it didn't work out and now I feel like I am just done with it all. I just want a drama free life. Its rare to find people these days that don't thrive off of drama and gossip. I like to read gossip about celebs and maybe hear a little about what's going on back home gossip. But mean, vindictive, making shit up and changing it around is just not my cup of tea. So along with my other changes I am making in my life I also have a new drama free goal. I just refuse to have it around me. I grew up in it and lived with it for so long, and it sucks. I am trying to learn what makes me happy and what I want out of life. I have quit caring about a lot of things that I used to care so much about. What I drive, where I live, watching tv, shopping for shoes! Things that used to mean the world to me just don't matter. Maybe I am growing up, I think maturing is a big part of it. But I also think that Florida kept me stagnant. I just stayed the same and didn't really ever change. This blog is becoming rather random. I just wanted to post how excited I was to have Mantha here and how I am still making changes for the better. But I guess thats the point of a blog to ramble on and put your thoughts out there. So anyways that's my thoughts for the day. I will blog more often now that I am off of my anti communication with the world mood.

First Blog

Well I set this new blog up. I am sick of myspace blogs. I just wanted something new. I hope you guys enjoy my new blog. I am at my parents right now so I will write a longer post later when I get back home. I am off to the Daytona Races tomorrow. I am excited to go. Its so much fun to spend time with my Dad. Today was a great day. I spent the day with my cousin Josh today. We went down to St. Augstine and walked around and had a blast. It was nice to get away and just chill with him. We walked around lost as hell most of the day, lol. We did hit some great outlet stores and I got a couple of great deals. Well I am going to go start getting ready for bed. I have a big day tomorrow.